I Deploy In 4 Days!!!!

As an unfortunate chain of events i am now re-assigned to the USS Abraham Lincoln, i will be gone for just under a month to deploy finally in mid March for 6-8 months.

I will not be here or able to see my daughter born or even her first 6-8 months of life here on this planet we call earth. Part of me wishes the Lord would no longer delay His coming and prevent me from enduring this hardship, yet i know that He will give me strength to prevail regardless.

My eyes right now are as full of tears as the day she left; while the agonizing pain i have held within causes my heart to bleed for a renewal of spirit and security in the [one whom i treasure most. (aka Jesus)]

So my dear friends and beloved one's i will miss you while i am gone but duty calls and when i am called i must follow and obey.

i thank the Lord will all that i am for without a Friend like Jesus i wonder how anyone survives such tragedy.

...to my Friends...

Luke 22:28 (New International Version)
"You are those who have stood by me in my trials."

...to one in similar shoes...

1 Thessalonians 3:3 (New International Version)
"so that no one would be unsettled by these trials. You know quite well that we were destined for them."

...to remind me to stay strong...

James 1:12 (New International Version)
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."

...to my unborn daughter...

Joshua 1:9 (King James Version)
"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."

a poem: to the unborn daughter of SSM

I will not be there to look into your eyes,

To hear you laugh or watch you cry,

I will miss your firsts and seconds but never your last,

I hope you will grow and forgive me for the past,

If it were up to me i would still be there,

No one would have left and love would still care,

My hearts desires to know you, to see you and to hold your hand,

Maybe when you are older you'll see the heart of a broken man,

Is not a father who did not care but loved you with his all,

Who wanted to watch your first steps and and your first fall,

Who did all he could do to be his best,

I love you my daughter and this i must confess,

I will pray for you to know the Lord as i do,

May He bless you with His love that is pure and true,

Love Always

AT3 Steven Troy Burrows II

Quote for the Week Brethren!

Ecclesiastes 12:13 (King James Version)
"Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man."

NX also known as Night Check

As of this last Monday i am officially back on night check working hours.

When i first got to my command i was placed on nights and this is when my efficiency and productivity double, maybe I'm nocturnal or its just the fact that we don't have to deal with the big bosses on nights; maybe a combination of both.

I'm applying at a few local businesses and hoping to get and retain a daytime job as to make a little extra money and save up for when my child is born.
Also a little extra cash will definitely help me pay off the court costs of defending myself when accusations were brought against me.

I'm looking at places like Saar's Food Market, K-Mart, 7-11, Jack in the Box and other's...
in the meantime i am also looking for reliable transportation, so if any out there know of any prospects please let me know!

Psalm 19:2 (King James Version)
"Day unto day uttereth speech, and night unto night sheweth knowledge."

My Life

my dream began on the 30th of March 2007,
i soon realized on the 29th of August 2007 that it was a nightmare,
now as each day passes by i pray to wake from this harsh reality i live in.
Thankfully i have the Lord, if it wasn't for Him guiding me through this darkness of loneliness and rejection from the one woman whom i desired to accept me, i would be hopelessly lost.
Fortunately this is not the case, i thank the Lord everyday, and everyone else should too.
If you don't know Him ask Him to reveal Himself to you an enjoy the peace that only He can give.

Revelation 3:20 (King James Version)
"Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me."


He wants you to invite Him in, would you?

2008

2008, i finally here, i hope all had a great Christmas and enjoyed what little time you had off.

now it's back to the daily grind, for those that have the Lord turn to Him ,count on Him, make your requests known and may your new year be full of blessings and spiritual growth.

AT3 over and out!

She has filed

... well i guess now it is totally clear that she wants not to be my wife any longer.

yes i know i should have known this when she left back in August, but i was in denial, praying and hoping she would change her mind or talk to me.

i miss her so much....

life goes on, and the Lord shall be my refuge!

no news is good news!!...really??

well with the upcoming holidays i have been down recently, i guess when you plan for the future you don't really plan for what you didn't want to happen.

i operated on the grounds that the direction i was going would be beneficial to my wife her daughter our baby and myself.
it was not, i am not too depressed thou because i am still holding on to the smallest and slightest chance that in the future if she wants she can return to me and trust that i will still be ready to be a father and a husband.
The Lord has put me through a lot and in each trial i realize how much more dependent i am on Him.

God knows how i feel about my wife, how i still have her pictures on my wall, how i saved our vows, how i got her on my phone as the main wallpaper, how i started wearing my ring again to remind myself of the commitment i made to her.

some would say well, she hasn't upheld her end so why do you still uphold yours, i can but merely answer them with a smile, I LOVE MY Wife...
even if she pursues this divorce and i see her in court i will still feel the same way.
for me this bond is permanent not legally but spiritually, we share a child together and for that i will always be dad, even when she finds someone better and my child calls them dad( much like Gracie did with me) i will still be connected to her in some way or another, not to mention she is part of the body of Christ and so this too, is a connection that her and i both share.

so many people are enjoying the season of being married and relationships and as well am i, i have the Lord.

i removed the song on my myspace profile because i realized i am "not Over Her" nor will i ever be..

very unfortunate for any of the ladies that may be marriage material in the future because even though my wife has left no woman can take the place that was reserved in my heart for One wife, for One marriage for One life together.

well together we are no more, in a physical sense, maybe she thinks about me every once in a while maybe she doesn't maybe she and you who read this hate me, well so be it...

I love her and i don't care if people say that it is wrong for me to love the woman who i chose to spend the rest of my life with..
we share the same goals, to be married, to be happy to have a family, well then I'll see you soon!..

...

sorry i haven't been on in a while tune in tomorrow for an update on "Life with the lord Jesus"

As a good Friend of mine adds

to the previous blog...

Romans 8:1 (King James Version)
"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."

So thus if we are in Christ we are not condemned to walk after the flesh rather to walk after the Spirit.

2 Corinthians 5:17 (King James Version)
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

It is Jesus Christ and only Jesus Christ that can deliver us from our bondage to sin.The key is, "in Christ," Living in Him and through Him then only are we free. Free from sin but a slave to the Lord, rather better position to be in don't you think? ...Not to mention everything is new!

1 Corinthians 7:21-23 (King James Version)
"Art thou called being a servant? care not for it: but if thou mayest be made free, use it rather. For he that is called in the Lord, being a servant, is the Lord's freeman: likewise also he that is called, being free, is Christ's servant. Ye are bought with a price; be not ye the servants of men."

We are called to submit to the Lord and Live with Him in our lives constantly, to serve Him is to be free by His actions and free in Him. It is not a low position in the eyes of God to be a servant. So do not stress if your life may seem meaningless to the fellow man, to God it is through service that we are free.

Philippians 4:13 (King James Version)
"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

Key word.... "Christ"

Something to think about as a new, young, growing and older believer in Christ

This will be about "Flesh vs. Spirit"

aka "old nature" vs. "new nature"

Often as a brand new believer we struggle with the things that we were so used to doing before we got saved, and now find it difficult to continue in activities that originally brought us pleasure. You may get this sense of guilt for what you're doing and feeling as though it's wrong, but not actually taking the steps to correct it. As Paul puts it in

Romans 7:15-20 (New Living Translation) "I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it. And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it."

What Paul fails to do here at this time, is admit that it is indeed him that does the wrong, now i am not disagreeing with the Word of God by any means. Even though we still have sin in us, and we still have our flesh which lusts after sin,(James 1:14-15) it does not have to control us!
However in order to be free from this feeling, there are a few things that need to take place. One of them is ownership. As many of you in order to be saved prayed the prayer that you are a sinner and that you have fallen short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23) so is much of the same mentality needed here to make the next step.
We now as Christians must know that the holy spirit dwells within us;

John 14:17 (King James Version)
"Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth Him not, neither knoweth Him: but ye know Him; for He dwelleth with you, and shall be in you."

OK so we know that we're sinners, we know that our flesh is sinful, we then take the step to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and we receive the Holy spirit.. so what next?
We all have the power of choice, but obviously as seen above we cant just merely choose; because we still end up doing the things that we don't want to. So then we need faith, we need to trust God's word and see that we have died with Christ and so we shall also rise with Christ.

Romans 6:4 (King James Version)
"Therefore we are buried with Him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life."

Notice how Paul says should! We have to consciously and through faith know and trust that we are putting away our sinful nature, and walking in the grace of our Lord. In order to do this successfully we need to "separate" from the things that are our tripping stones.

Proverbs 18:1 (King James Version)
"Through desire a man, having separated himself, seeketh and intermeddleth with all wisdom."

Again what we should be doing is separating us from these "temptations," yes i know that some may not want to stop going to the bars, stop going to parties and hanging out with our so called friends that we used to party with, drink together, chase members of the opposite sex etc... (but) I must stress that we cannot be successful if we disagree with God and try to justify our keeping of the old friends.

1 Corinthians 5:5-7 (King James Version)
"Your glorying is not good. Know ye not that a little leaven leaveneth the whole lump?
Purge out therefore the old leaven, that ye may be a new lump, as ye are unleavened. For even Christ our passover is sacrificed for us:"

Here we see once more the need for separation; as well as, that once we do so we allow what Christ has done for us to make us new and leaven free.
So now lets talk about the Holy Spirit that dwells in us. Even though He is in us, He does not take control and render us as bystanders to watch while He runs our life. so we then find ourselves with the necessity to pray and walk in a way that would be pleasing to Him.

Romans 8:5 (King James Version)
"For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit."

You can have the Holy Spirit but still pursue the things of the flesh. So to remind you, we should first be seeking the things of God

Matthew 6:33 (King James Version)
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

As well as walking by faith, and in fellowship with those who are like minded.

2 Corinthians 5:7 (King James Version)
"For we walk by faith, not by sight:"

1 John 1:5-7 (King James Version)
"This then is the message which we have heard of Him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanseth us from all sin."

To Close this message, we have forgiveness of sins, but only through the blood of Christ, we have an old nature that lusts after the things of this world, but we are given the wonderful gift of the Holy Spirit, if we walk in darkness we displease God and can not truly have fellowship with Him, but if we recon ourselves dead to the things of this world, and are risen with Christ, we can then walk in the light and enjoy the many and vast things that our Father in heaven so graciously wants to give to us.

p.s. some other relevant verses to look at when dealing with this struggle:

(Romans 8:13,32) (Romans 12:1-2) (Galatians 5:9) (John 3:3-8) (2 Corinthians 5:17) (Proverbs 14:6, 12) (Philippians 3:8)

Psalm 18:30 (King James Version)
"As for God, His way is perfect: the word of the LORD is tried: He is a buckler to all those that trust in Him."