Well as many may already know i recently was dealt a hand that for some would be crippling. However i have been maintained by the grace and the goodness of my Lord.
Acts 20:24 (King James Version)
"But none of these things move me, neither count I my life dear unto myself, so that I might finish my course with joy, and the ministry, which I have received of the Lord Jesus, to testify the gospel of the grace of God."
There is a sense of peace knowing truly that my life is entirely in His hands, here's where people get confused, If we at all try to take matters into our own hands; we prevent the Lord from providing for us as He sees fit.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (King James Version)
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths."
So the situation was, i met this girl in high school who carried herself unlike any other girls i knew, she was reserved and polite, smiled and walked beautifully. At that time i was a nobody, in short i had many problems and followed my own path (a path that at the time i thought was the only right way to do things) and wasn't worthy of her courtship.
Through the saving grace of my Lord and the finished work of Jesus Christ on the cross, i began to change.
2 Corinthians 5:17 (King James Version)
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
Meanwhile this lovely lady started down a slippery and painful path of her own. I was saved Feb 5Th 2005 on a Saturday morning. Nov 6Th 2005 i was baptised in the Lord. I like many other young believers struggled with my old and new nature battle that was now taking place.
Matthew 26:41 (King James Version)
"Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."
I had not filled myself with the spirit, i was not steady in my prayers.
I had made and kept small amounts of contact with this girl i met, and found in 2007 that she was soon moving near to me after i had joined the Armed Services. I decided to meet with her to see if the same passion we both shared 3 years ago for music was still there, and to hopefully kindle a romance and a relationship that led to marriage and a happy family.
In today's society it is necessary to be married and avoid fornication,
1 Corinthians 7:2 (King James Version)
"Nevertheless, to avoid fornication, let every man have his own wife, and let every woman have her own husband."
So even though my intention may have been scripture based, the way in which i went about it was not in submission to the Lord, the beginning of my problems started here. My wife and i during our engagement discussed thoroughly our thoughts and views on God, marriage, family and more... Yet when we made the mistake of fornication before we were married, it appeared that we had both repented. Myself and other's were under the impression that she was genuinely true to her word and her commitments (deep down inside i hope that woman still exists). I still have the original copy of her vows, a few wedding photos that were thrown in the trash and recovered, and some voice messages saved on my phone that exemplify a wife who is indeed loving, caring, respectful, and more.
She started out like this...
Proverbs 12:4 (New King James Version)
"An excellent wife is the crown of her husband, But she who causes shame is like rottenness in his bones."
and now is more like the latter half of the verse..
It is sad for me to say that while i was away (work related) she was motivated by others (and this false fear that i would end up like her ex's) that helped and enabled her to pack up and leave me, in the meantime getting a protection order as to prevent me from pursuing her.
1 Corinthians 7:10-11 (King James Version)
"And unto the married I command, yet not I, but the Lord, Let not the wife depart from her husband: But and if she depart, let her remain unmarried or be reconciled to her husband: and let not the husband put away his wife."
We had marriage classes and parenting classes that were set up and she avoided both. all of a sudden this prized wife i thought i had, was now gone, left and in such a manner as to give no hopes of her return.
Yet even with such tragedy, and multiple court cases (which have all accused me of violating this order, and the results being that i have not... due to the lack of evidence, eventually resulted in dismissal), a complete mental breakdown and various other situational related problems, the Lord has stayed true to His Word.
Joshua 1:9 (New King James Version)
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”
The Lord never left my side. He never will.
Today I am living strong and growing even more in the things of God, and know that i have a brighter future when living in obedience to Him.
Romans 8:28 (King James Version)
"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."
Thursday, November 29, 2007
The First day of my very own Blog
I am officially starting a blog to keep all freinds, family and others up to date with what's going on in my life, my daily developement as a young Christian, and other various news and or scripture that has been benificial to me.
In a life and a world where often so much occurs and takes place and yet is forgotten so quickly; hopefully this will be an avenue to allow venting as well as keeping an account with progress, success and difficulties.
feel free to add at any time and share all that is in your heart and on your mind.
youngBrotha.. over & out
In a life and a world where often so much occurs and takes place and yet is forgotten so quickly; hopefully this will be an avenue to allow venting as well as keeping an account with progress, success and difficulties.
feel free to add at any time and share all that is in your heart and on your mind.
youngBrotha.. over & out
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